Happy Holidays!

jesus and santa talking

jesus: alam mo naiinggit ako sa yo...
santa claus: bakit naman?
jesus: kasi ikaw inaabangan nila sa birthday ko...

Drunk Letter for a So-Called Friend

i actually wrote this one last December 12, 2009. I was drunk and disappointed and losing my sanity. so allow me to bitch out a little. and learn from my mistakes. maybe after reading, you can ask yourself, are my friends REALLY my friends?

everything about this day just sucks. It sucks because reality slapped me in the face really really hard.

Some friends... why are there people who are so good at pretensions? Years ago I really thought I have found friends who are worth keeping. The kind of friends who are willing to stay by your side when youre so down, and friends who just value you for what you are. Until today. I realize I just have to lose some people who have become excess baggage in my life. Some people whom I thought worth keeping. Its just sad that I have to be broke and down and depress first, in order to realize that there are friends in my friends list who are not worth keeping.

Today, I see you as the girl who babbles negative things about me because I could not provide something for you anymore. Yes, I’m typically broke and yes, because of that I know you don’t want me to be friends with you. Its pathetic that we’ve known each other for years it is only now I realize what kind of a person you are. and since I’m drunk and a little furious about what I discovered about you stabbing me behind my back, let me bitch out something about you.

One, youre a sick a liar. You keep telling people about how you have achieved a lot of things in our high school and how youve participated in a lot of things in our org. But let me tell you this, everytime I hear you lie and boast about things that never even existed on that part of your life. You make me feel more sad and confused on why I even keep you on my friends list.

Two, you have this disgusting way of blowing your nose in public places and utterly intolerable of keeping yourself fresh. Too explicit I must say. And yes, you should even be thankful that even though I am bitching out about you and I am losing sanity, I haven’t mentioned your name.

Three, youre nothing but an under achiever who likes to stick to people of have achieved so much. Be it fame or money. How did I know? We’ll look what happened to us. After knowing that my dad is not working anymore and that I don’t have enough cash in my pocket, look where you are now? Gone far away. And what’s so new? You don’t invite me to little night outs anymore. Oh don’t give that crap that what’s the point of inviting me when I don’t even come. Hey! Listen to that crap. If we are really friends, you would know the reason why I couldn’t come and you would understand and still let me know what is going on with our CIRCLE OF FRIENDS. You would know that my parents are so strict and that I couldn’t go out and hang-out on clubs on school time. I know you know that our school end next week, so technically, this Saturday is still part of the school week. But then why would you care since I don’t have enough cash to keep you and listen to the updates of my life.

My dearest “friend”, I only have three things to tell you before I end my bitching out about you. One, I honestly trusted you and cared for you like a true friend. I even consider you as a partner, but after summer, I noticed how you have changed. You cant even keep secrets anymore and that’s why I started hating you. You told other people how I have become unmanageable? Wow! Thank you so much for telling that to people. For telling them that I couldn’t manage my life as you expected me to manage me. Im glad you told them about how I manage MY LIFE. (Yea, I hope you notice the word MY in MY LIFE.) But I hope the next time you do that to others, can you look at yourself in the mirror first and see if you have dirt? Yes, the pimples count as dirt.

You know the first time I learned about you telling that to other people, I hope you noticed you weren’t invited on my birthday, it was actually my way of telling you that I was really hurt by what you did. I guess, you didn’t get the message because you were so goddamn insensitive. And just hours ago, I called up and even checked on you to see if maybe we could hang out and fix our problem. But you turned me down. And even lie. Sleeping? We’ve been friends for years that’s why I know you don’t take siestas. Too bad you weren’t a good liar. I guess you were only good at boasting.

The second thing I’m gonna tell you is that, I am totally unhappy with what is going on between us. You keep hurting me after all that I did to you. And it cuts me that I don’t matter to you. I could not accept the fact that you did this because I couldn’t provide for you. Because as I see things, I guess that’s the reason why you are treating me like this. Maybe this time, its time for me to get up and dust myself and totally not allow you to look at me and belittle me as you stick yourself to people who can provide you with what you wanted.

Third, im gonna miss your old you. The girl I hang-out and have fun with. But this ends our journey together. I could not allow you to hurt me again. And I am full of hate and disappointment with what happened to us, but I guess that’s life. We have to learn the hard way. Goodbye so called friend. Thank you for teaching me a lesson about what true friend means.

Don’t worry, unlike you, I wont mention your name because this is only between the TWO of us. Don’t worry, we are not gonna get each other’s way. I wont pull you down like what you did. And we are not even gonna look into each other’s eyes ever again. It’s like I never existed in your life. You can do the same if you want. I wouldn’t mind at all because before you even knew it, I don’t care at all.

Goodbye Forever

something to reflect on...

December 10, 2009 - Months ago, I watched the performance Kasibulan dance company in Showtime. I never thought hand mime can speak so much.

There was just something about this video that made me feel so good.

So go ahead, watch it.

And yes, it's ok to shed that tear.

:)

*disclaimer: VIDEO posted by PINASWATCH13

external link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qxEFjbSpr-A

It's a Jacob Thing

My oh my!!

I didn’t seriously expect Taylor Lautner to look like that. His body is OOOHHHHsome!!!! (insert dripping saliva here). I mean, the Jacob I saw from the first Twilight installment have a body of 16-year-old wimpy daddy’s boy. But lookie-lookie now, his body is worth drooling for. In fact, he was the only one worth watching in the film. I got bored on the first 10 minutes and I got disappointed on the following one.

I watched the movie alone. Yea! Some “weird” stuff I do to satisfy my weirdness. So, I watched the movie alone and when I said alone, I literally and blatantly mean ALONE. Which means even if I scream, jump, run around the cinema house, no one would care or yell how stupid of me to that because just like what I said, I BLATANTLY watched New Moon alone.

There were so many things I would like to complain about this latest instalment. I mean don’t expect me to complain like other whiners who keeps comparing the 200+ something pages of book to an hour and a half movie. I’m not like that. I only have three things to complain.

One, the make-ups. I mean, hello! There’s like so many make-up line that could help produce a more “vampirish” look. The make-up artist must have been kidding when nobody even bother to check on how the make-up would look on screen. I mean if I’m ever gonna see Edward Cullen on real life I would definitely gush and say: “Hello Edward! Nice face powder, can I ask some so I could make some pancakes.” Seriously!

The second thing to complain was Bella. I know Bella’s character was sorta stupid, help-me-I’m-emo-type of teeny but to show in the flick that being emo and stupid is cool, is absolutely not advisable. Talk about riding bikes with fat, old, ugly strangers and cliff-jumping. But then I should be thankful for Bella’s stupidity because if it wasn’t for her idiocy, Jacob wouldn’t take his shirt off. Yum!

“Will you marry me?”. That was Edward’s last line on the film, and then it all turned black. I was actually shocked it ended like that. I mean it seems that after or the free 6-pack-sightings, the film ended like that? I didn’t even felt giddy like I felt o the previous one. I think Catherine Hedgewick is better than this latest director. She just know how to interpret the book and manage to combine them all in a flick. This recent one wasn’t a boo-boo. Or maybe it’s too mean to say such. But I wasn’t really satisfied. Maybe I expected too much.

Hmmm... it wasn’t actually that bad. Say 3 stars for this one. I would have given it 2 stars but because of Jacob’s free skin show, it garnered 3. Jacob! Jacob! Jacob! Taylor! Taylor! Taylor! My oh my. He’s growing beautifully and vainly.

You may ask what are the things that made me drool for Jacob aside from his god-like bod? Hmmm.. let’s see.. it’s probably his furry alter-ego. I have this thing for something furry. For me, everything furry is cute and adorable (that explains the long list of dogs I have). And I really felt for him when his wolf-self showed tears when the Emo-Bella said “Don’t make me choose, blah blah blah, it’s Edward. It was always been Edward”. Actually reading New Moon and watching Taylor Lautner’s portrayal of the said character made me a bit confuse which team I’m on. Team Jacob or Team Carlisle... err... I mean Team Edward.

And the last Jacob that really caught my attention was when he asked Bella to stay... for Charlie... for him. But you know what happened. As expected emo Bella went to see Edward with Alice and the rest is history.