everything about this day just sucks. It sucks because reality slapped me in the face really really hard.
Some friends... why are there people who are so good at pretensions? Years ago I really thought I have found friends who are worth keeping. The kind of friends who are willing to stay by your side when youre so down, and friends who just value you for what you are. Until today. I realize I just have to lose some people who have become excess baggage in my life. Some people whom I thought worth keeping. Its just sad that I have to be broke and down and depress first, in order to realize that there are friends in my friends list who are not worth keeping.
Today, I see you as the girl who babbles negative things about me because I could not provide something for you anymore. Yes, I’m typically broke and yes, because of that I know you don’t want me to be friends with you. Its pathetic that we’ve known each other for years it is only now I realize what kind of a person you are. and since I’m drunk and a little furious about what I discovered about you stabbing me behind my back, let me bitch out something about you.
One, youre a sick a liar. You keep telling people about how you have achieved a lot of things in our high school and how youve participated in a lot of things in our org. But let me tell you this, everytime I hear you lie and boast about things that never even existed on that part of your life. You make me feel more sad and confused on why I even keep you on my friends list.
Two, you have this disgusting way of blowing your nose in public places and utterly intolerable of keeping yourself fresh. Too explicit I must say. And yes, you should even be thankful that even though I am bitching out about you and I am losing sanity, I haven’t mentioned your name.
Three, youre nothing but an under achiever who likes to stick to people of have achieved so much. Be it fame or money. How did I know? We’ll look what happened to us. After knowing that my dad is not working anymore and that I don’t have enough cash in my pocket, look where you are now? Gone far away. And what’s so new? You don’t invite me to little night outs anymore. Oh don’t give that crap that what’s the point of inviting me when I don’t even come. Hey! Listen to that crap. If we are really friends, you would know the reason why I couldn’t come and you would understand and still let me know what is going on with our CIRCLE OF FRIENDS. You would know that my parents are so strict and that I couldn’t go out and hang-out on clubs on school time. I know you know that our school end next week, so technically, this Saturday is still part of the school week. But then why would you care since I don’t have enough cash to keep you and listen to the updates of my life.
My dearest “friend”, I only have three things to tell you before I end my bitching out about you. One, I honestly trusted you and cared for you like a true friend. I even consider you as a partner, but after summer, I noticed how you have changed. You cant even keep secrets anymore and that’s why I started hating you. You told other people how I have become unmanageable? Wow! Thank you so much for telling that to people. For telling them that I couldn’t manage my life as you expected me to manage me. Im glad you told them about how I manage MY LIFE. (Yea, I hope you notice the word MY in MY LIFE.) But I hope the next time you do that to others, can you look at yourself in the mirror first and see if you have dirt? Yes, the pimples count as dirt.
You know the first time I learned about you telling that to other people, I hope you noticed you weren’t invited on my birthday, it was actually my way of telling you that I was really hurt by what you did. I guess, you didn’t get the message because you were so goddamn insensitive. And just hours ago, I called up and even checked on you to see if maybe we could hang out and fix our problem. But you turned me down. And even lie. Sleeping? We’ve been friends for years that’s why I know you don’t take siestas. Too bad you weren’t a good liar. I guess you were only good at boasting.
The second thing I’m gonna tell you is that, I am totally unhappy with what is going on between us. You keep hurting me after all that I did to you. And it cuts me that I don’t matter to you. I could not accept the fact that you did this because I couldn’t provide for you. Because as I see things, I guess that’s the reason why you are treating me like this. Maybe this time, its time for me to get up and dust myself and totally not allow you to look at me and belittle me as you stick yourself to people who can provide you with what you wanted.
Third, im gonna miss your old you. The girl I hang-out and have fun with. But this ends our journey together. I could not allow you to hurt me again. And I am full of hate and disappointment with what happened to us, but I guess that’s life. We have to learn the hard way. Goodbye so called friend. Thank you for teaching me a lesson about what true friend means.
Don’t worry, unlike you, I wont mention your name because this is only between the TWO of us. Don’t worry, we are not gonna get each other’s way. I wont pull you down like what you did. And we are not even gonna look into each other’s eyes ever again. It’s like I never existed in your life. You can do the same if you want. I wouldn’t mind at all because before you even knew it, I don’t care at all.
Goodbye Forever
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