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Voltes V

March 18, 2010

Dear Mr. V Young,

After a night of mishaps, I realize I only care for you as a friend. You are too young for me. And I am smart enough to feel your insincerity.


xOxOx,
Tequila


P.S.
I enjoyed the sweet lies and sweet moments though but I guess it wasn't enough.
It WILL NEVER be enough.

a reason to forget. a reason to love French class!

March 17, 2010

Mon "Mr. Hot Body" jamais le plus cher,

Wow! La nuit dernière était un enfer d'une mésaventure. Vous balancez mon monde. Juste quand j'ai cru qu'il arriverait seulement dans ma fantaisie la plus sombre. Vous êtes un enfer d'un homme que je n'oublierais jamais. Et que l'endroit bête qui surgit sur le centre de la ville. Vous étiez un tel chéri la nuit dernière. Je n'ai jamais cru que vous faites une telle chose. Vos lèvres étaient les plus douces. J'ai senti le ciel quand il a touché le mien. Et vos bras qui ont emballé autour de moi, m'ont fait se sentir fragiles et ont chatouillé la petite fille dans moi. C'était magnifique.

Mais comme qu'ils disent, de bonnes choses ne durent jamais . Le nôtre, en fait, n'était pas supposent pour arriver. C'était juste une affaire de coup de celui. Et avec juste un craquement de doigts, son parti. Et il est que nous voulons arriver. Parti. Juste une nuit d'être ensemble. Je devine son assez, qu'une fois dans ma vie idiote, bête, surprenante, je vous avais. Nous nous avions.

J'espère que cela ne ruinera pas l'amitié entre nous. J'espère que vous resterez le même. Je sais ce qui est arrivé était une belle faute. Mais n'inquiétez pas, donnez-moi juste un peu plus de jours et je le traverserai. J'espère que vous faites le même. Souvenez-vous de la note courte que je vous ai donnée à l'hôtel ? Vous devriez le traverser et oublier chaque chose parce qu'il est que vous devriez faire. J'espère que nos sentiers ne passeront pas pour maintenant. Ne moi recevez pas mal, je suis toujours un ami. Votre meilleur copain de Mafia. Donnez-moi juste une semaine ou deux pour traverser votre existence et votre odeur. Gardez s'il vous plaît votre promesse de notre petit secret. Vous savez combien j'aime mes amis. Surtout cette fille vous avez eu l'habitude de savoir. Gardez donc votre part équitable de l'affaire. Je sais que vous êtes l'homme assez pour faire ainsi.

Je vais manquer votre visage, votre baiser et votre étreinte.
Vous êtes merveilleux, en effet.



xOxOx,
Tequila


P.S.
Nope. Je n'offre aucun rapport romantique avec toi. Amitié juste.

ink spill

March 15, 2010 - I am totally thrilled with this whole event. I couldn't believe I made it though the whole process. It was tough penetrating the system. I seriously didnt believe I would surpass each challenges placed on my plate - talk about self-esteem.

But my friends, mentors and family believed in me. They knew I would pas. And without their encouragement, I would probably gloom and think negatively of my capacity.

And today, I couldnt find enough words to thank God for this wonderful blessing. Little by little I'm starting to pave the right way. Gone are the days when childish acts and nonchalant dreams ruled my world. Now, its time to face the real world and embrace real challenges.

I would like to thank the following people who supported me on this unexpected event.

to University of St. La Salle: for hosting that event.

to Jojo ang Danielle: for convincing me to try and fill up the form.

to Eli Jon: for enlightening me. and for the moolah. :)

to Rina: for just being there :)

to Ms. Fauna: for giving me the numbers of important people.

to my beloved Team Intermittent: for the past two (or three) weeks, you made every day and every night of my life memorable and exciting! thanks a bunch! I cant wait to see you again. :)

(l-r) Yana, Camille, Mommy Ellah (we call her Sexy Mommah), Mich, Mommy Jean, Rhea, Mommy Carmilla, Mommy April, Charleston, and Tintin
(not in picture but in our hearts): Charm, Mark, Big Daddy Dennis

P.S.
Keep guessing what's this ink spill all about :)

Last night

Last night...
it was so beautiful I could choke and die

you wouldnt know what it means unless you're part of it

This is not goodbye

March 11, 2010 - I received a bad news last night. And I didnt quite expect it would come too soon. My friend Bebe died.

Bebe is a young, carefree 12-year-old girl who used to come to our house and help her Mom do our laundry. She's the diligent girl who would clean and sweep our backyard without being told so.If there is one thing I could not forget her, its her coy smile every time you asked her about crushes and life. Like me, she have this thirst to learn a lot of things. She's a smart girl. And sporty too - she loves badminton. And though she was deprived with all the luxuries in life, and sometimes deprived from playing as well, Bebe didnt complain that life was tough.

At a young age, Bebe was diagnosed with meningitis. I dont know when for all I was, she was too young to have such disease. But I guess, no one is too young or too old for this disease. It was just hard to accept that a young, happy, and smart girl would die too soon. . .

Bebe with my Sappho

For Bebe,

Sweet child... I will miss every thing about you. From your being industrious to your being carefree, happy self. I wished we saw each other for the last time, but I guess it wasnt meant that way. I know you are in a happier place now and I know that in there, you can do what you have been deprived of. You will never be forgotten for the moments we've shared are marked well in my heart.
Give my regards to my Lola Azon and Lolo Lydio, I know youll meet them there. I will miss you Bebe.


P.S.
Can I see you in my dreams?


Hugs and Kisses,
Manang Cathie

the ONE that got AWAY

March 10, 2010 - Fave article. Fave article. Fave article that made me sigh.

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In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with.... and the one that got away

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything is great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didnt fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with you being ready to settle down and in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance. Commit someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesnt matter who you're with, it just doesnt work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet the right time and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesnt matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?". You'll wonder, "What if we were together now; with me as I am and not as I was?". That's the biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you are married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment. One which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never been nice to live with a "might have been" but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you if it's not yet too late? Simple... find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away". You might drop in and it wont make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone,

♥"Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."♥

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I was cleaning my closet when I found an old box of letters and poems that I wrote years ago,. This one is an article written by Mark J. Macapagal for Manila Times. This article reminds me of my friend Lara. Lara was the one who gave me a copy of this article. She even teased my that my love story should be entitle "EVERYBODY GOT AWAY". hahahaha. Reminiscing, this article became my time machine and traveled me back to what I used to be. I was so childish and let go easily. The weird part is, I let go every time I feel like I'm lovestruck. I feared love. Sad but true.

So if you're going to ask me which ONE who got away I'll choose? hmmmm... Maybe I'll choose the guy whom I met at a friend’s party. The guy who dropped me off in front of my house because it's 8 pm. The guy who stayed up with me on the phone. The guy who made me laugh so hard. The guy who supported my DOTA Addiction. And the guy who never cared how weird I was.

And who is this guy? Make a guess! ^^;